While fasting recently, I was overwhelmingly convicted of God's goodness in my life. I was reminded I was healed of a brain tumor when I was seven years old. Others weren't healed of that. I survived a heart attack 10 years ago. Others haven't. My heart stopped three days after the heart attack while taking a heart test. They jumped my heart back to beat again. My neighbor, younger than I, died of a heart attack years ago and He loved God too. I just don't understand why I am still here and others aren't. I owe everything to Him. Why He loves me I can't understand. It makes me weep. Sensing his daily constant goodness is leading me to a life of repentance and being merciful to others.
How Many Of You Are Glad To Be Anywhere?
If it had not been for the Lord on my side where would I be? When I stand up to minister I ask a question that never fails to release an atmospheric anointing of thankfrulness into people's hearts. "How many of you are glad to be anywhere?" They laugh, but the annointing of thanksgiving has already begun to fall upon them to start counting their endless blessings. Then I tell them, "I am just glad to be." Since the attack against my heart I now have a ministry of full-time breathing! Breathing qualifies us to worship! Looking back on my trials and life threatening events I know now that I could have been thanking the Lord in them instead of afterwards. "In everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." (1 Thessalonians 5:18) When we stop thanking Him, we take ourselves out of His perfect will.
I am learning what God wants to hear from us when we are in the fiery flame with no strings attached. In our sufferings we often attach strings to our prayers, like: 'if you heal me or let me live.' I learned quickly in that emergency room what He is after. "Father, I love you!" That's it..period! And when it's from our hearts, I can imagine all of heaven stopping as He says to the angels, "Stay up here, I have a personal house call. I'm going down for the nine count rescue!"
Have you wondered how saints of old and present could give thanks, breaking into worship, when facing a firing squad or being burned at stake? Could it be they were not praising God to move Him to do anything more? They were praising Him for what He had already done in their lives, the past miracles and deliverances and for the fact that they were still here. Each day of their lives was a precious gift and so was this one. Eternity beat in their hearts. They knew they were always one heart beat away from seeing the bigger picture of God's perfect plan for their lives. Their present fiery trial, stoning, or pointed gun was a reminder... "Absent from the body - present with the Lord." (2 Corinthians 5:8) They were fully convinced God was able to deliver but if He didn't, they would go out in a blaze of glory. "And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death ..." Rev.12"11
DL Moody once said, "The day will come when you will read in the obituary that D L Moody has died. Don't you believe it. It is a lie. I will be more alive at that moment than I have ever been on earth." And so will we who put our trust in Jesus Christ. We will be alive when the stars fall from their sockets and this earth is no more. For His goodness and mercy endures forever.